Okay people, I don't know why I'm posting at this unearthly hour but I suppose I've to get this baggage off my heart. I'm gonna be very straight-forward so forgive me if I've offended you or anything. Peihao and I are extremely troubled by the current motivation level in our squad. So, here goes.
What in the world is wrong with us?
I've been typing some dumb stuff hoping that it can spark off something in your thoughts but apparently it doesn't work, so I'm gonna post whatever comes to my mind. Just compare, look, look at us in the photo above, when we took that picture, we were all motivated and passionate, now? I seriously hate saying this, but our standard is horrible.
You know, it's understandable if you refuse to come for acts, but what about the squad BBQ? It's for us to bond, but who actually takes the effort to come? Who? We put in so much effort just to get some horrible attendance for the BBQ, and it's supposed to be fun, but who came? The normal few. What's this? Is paying a little money that difficult? I seriously don't know what to say. I'm rather glad the NCOs didn't turn up, they would be disappointed to see that attendance. Even Peihao and I would feel ashamed. Why can't you just give yourself a chance to bond together with the squad? Is it that difficult? We're not asking you to eat shit, it's merely bonding.
I don't mind putting in the effort to plan these activities a million times, but the question is, WHO WILL GO? Ask yourself truthfully, will you? You know, it ain't that difficult to join us for lunch.
We can talk about many other topics, other than NP itself.
It won't be that boring.
We're a squad, we'll share everything together.
We can share our joy, our misery, practically everything.
So why don't you just ********* give yourself a chance?
Look at us, no, the attendance. What kinda crap is that? 17 people? Am I supposed to marvel at it and say that at least there's still half?
Where's our motivation?
Foong Hui's losing it, it's obvious.
In short, EVERYONE is losing it.
Even I, that crazy bastard who's forever shouting so loud is losing my enthusiasm.
I miss the past, I miss it alot.
I'd still like to say that even if everybody gives up on this squad, I still won't.
WHY?
I love this squad. I love every single one of us(even Louis).
I dare proclaim that I'll be that lame and childish to write "I love my squad" on a piece of tape and stick it on my forehead.
I don't know about you, but I do love my squad.
I miss the enthusiasm.
I miss everything.
Foonghui, Freda, Ruth,Kristine, Junianti, Madeline, Jiemin, ShouFong, Madeleine, Jing Yee, Yang Sheng, Amanda, where are all of you? You're all present physically, no doubt, but what about mentally?
Foonghui, she's already dying.
Freda, she's trying to hold on.
Ruth, she has already given up.
Kristine, I don't know, where're you?
Junianti, you're the squad general, but frankly speaking, where's the effort put in? Perhaps you've put in effort, but it's not visible yet.
Madeline, I've no comment, you know it yourself, if that motivation really works, then that'll be really good (xD)
Jiemin, I miss the enthusiastic you during ROD, the one who stayed with us so late to complete the presents.
Shoufong, we see words coming from you, but not actions, where're the actions?
Madeleine, I can see that you're putting in loads of effort, but it ain't enough. Nevertheless, thanks. Most of the time, you make me feel motivated, because you're always co-operative. Thanks alot, seriously.
Jingyee, you've been darn good,darn nice, darn serious, but I can tell you're already losing hope.
Yangsheng, I don't know if you bother, perhaps you do, but it ain't enough. Try putting in more effort k. :]
Amanda, thanks for being supportive all this while, seriously, thanks, at least you make me feel motivated.
We need our passion back.
I WANT THE RECOGNITION FROM EVERYONE.
From our seniors, juniors and outsiders.
I bloody hate it when we get criticised.
From the beginning of RVNP's history, we've been second to none, even NCC.
Is the reign going to be over soon? All because of us?
That'll be such a pity, no, too much of a pity.
The choice is in our hands, are we gonna work hard to restore our former glory?
Look at the other UG's criticising us.
Especially NCC, have you heard how they're saying we're lousy?
How our training is slack?
PROVE IT TO THEM.
I didn't shout that loud during drills to tackle their shouts for nothing.
I believe we can do better than them.
No, I don't believe.
I KNOW WE CAN DO IT.
Since our past i/cs', we've already been told we've potential.
Truckloads of potential.
First, they were Liting, Clarine, QinHui, Kah Hoe, now, it's Raymeo, Simin, Wee Teck and HuiMin.
They all pin their hopes on us.
Are we gonna disappoint them just like that?
Do you think the present NCOs will keep shouting at us if they don't care?
Obviously not.
Why are they doing this? Because they care for us.
So why are we doing this? Because we hate them?
No, that'll be selfish, too selfish.
Peihao and I also post because we care.We don't want to see half a century's work belonging to our seniors go down the drain.Do we?
Take Raymeo and Simin as an example, they shout their heads off, what do they get? Some horrible standard. If I were them, I'd probably go to some Felicia Chin's concert and cheer for her instead. So why do they care? Because we're forever the RVNP S1'08 in their hearts, we're still the squad that has potential. Thats real touching, I think I'd probably cry if I'm a girl, but too bad, I've two extra speakers and a microphone, so I don't think I'd cry. Probably shed tears of gratitude or something. Remember what the current NCOs had told us? Loads of the NCOs wanted to take our squad because they could sense the hugeass potential in our squad, but now, they're all disappointed. I think it's time we all got motivated again to work this out together, serious, it's only a couple of days more to the promotion test and a few weeks before the start of the new year. Are we gonna be some noob shit when the juniors come in and let them look down on us?
Back to the serious stuff.
Look at Shimin and Si Heng, I don't have to elaborate so much, all of you here knows it yourself.
Well, I've posted about the negative stuff, so here's something better.
At least, when we went collecting the money today, quite a small number followed us to collect the money. So at least I feel glad that there's some passion left in us, thats good, but not good enough. Oh, and I would like to thank Clarine here too. Thanks for being nice and going all around to help us. And thanks, your presence gave me motivation to memorise the sizing commands today, because you gave us the impression that you still cared, and thats what matters.
Yawns, sighs.
I feel very tired, perhaps because it's already 3.40am, but it doesn't matter. What matters most to me now is our squad. I swear I'll not play a fool during acts any more, Peihao and I will be as serious as can be. Perhaps we've to consult Jing Yee on how we can learn to be as serious as her(no offence k, LOL). Nevertheless, I still hate myself, for letting us drop into this state. It hurts, it seriously does. From a totally cute squad to a ._. one, it's like seeing a pretty girl on TV only to find out that she's shittily ugly in real life.
We can only lead you to the river, but we can't force you to drink. We can talk to you and plan the activities for you. But we can't force you to listen and attend the things we plan. The responsibility is all yours. Everyone of us plays a part. Perhaps we could all sit down as a squad and interact some day, that would be great, besides, we seriously need that. Interaction, bonding, it's really important. As important as China which is trying to help tide over this crisis now.
Just take a little moment to ponder over this. Even better, pass it on, tell others about your opinions. Make them reflect. All it takes is just a small moment, and a bit of effort. Perhaps you can think about it while you're doing your business in the toilet or something, but at least, think about it. And er, maybe you can tag your opinions or wishes down in the tagboard, then we can fulfill them together. Don't give up, we're still young, lets feel the power of youth together
Do remember, we all play a part, the 34 of us will form a piece of pizza, without any of us, we'll be like a revolting 1/34 eaten pizza and that'd be disastrous. Okay I'm gonna end this here, the bed has never looked more appealing than this.
Ponder, it just takes a small moment and effort.
Ken
P.S Ignore all grammatical errors for I didn't bother about it, thanks.
