Uh, squadmates, sorry for this sorta emo post, but I found this random post on my blog- after seeing Seow Hwee's latest post whereby she commented that "why are we most bonded when its ending?"... Just to add some emo-ness to this blog and remind everyone of the impending sorrowful ROD...! (and make Junianti wrong about the spamming of ITC posts on this blog ^^)...
That scene brought about a sudden burst of sorrow.
Parting. Farewell.
We'll all have to go through those, don't we?
We were at Dover Mrt station after the relay at ACS(I).
Dover Mrt Station is designed in such a way that those headed to Pasir Ris and those heading to Joo Koon would be separated by the track.
There, Yang Sheng headed to one platform, and all the rest of us were on the other.
The rest of us, excluding Angela, who'd left first.
Excluding Pei Hao, who was taking a bus back.
Excluding Sylvia, who was to be fetched by her parents.
Ken, Keng Seng, Kristine, Ruth, Ying Ying, and I.
We watched Yang Sheng on the opposite platform.
As his train drew near, we waved to him.
He waved back in acknowledgement.
Then, the train obscured him.
Ruth said that it looked as if the train had hit him.
Where Yang Sheng boarded the train, there was a plastic plane, whereby we could see him still.
He walked straight in, and stood where he faced us.
We waved at him again.
Separated as we were,
Bound for different destinations, different destinies, as we were.
Yang Sheng waved back.
A brief notion entered my mind.
For us, we could see Yang Sheng standing alone.
For him, he could see us all standing together.
I wonder.
I wonder what thoughts ran across his mind as he saw us all together.
I wonder what feelings he'd feel, realising that he has to make his journey solo.
The train started gaining in speed,
pulling our squadmate further and further.
We continued waving, and he returned them, albeit with limited enthusiasm.
Our eyes followed him until we could see Yang Sheng no more.
As the train left the station,
I suddenly felt very tired.
Mentally drained.
This parting is one little parting,
we being certain we'll see our squadmate again.
What if, one day, the parting is for ever?
What if, one day, we part,
never to see the other again?
The train is akin to time.
When the time comes, we'll have to leave each other.
Everyone. Classmates, squadmates. Friends.
All of us are doomed to this fate.
Things we want to say,
things we feel,
things we wish to share,
we cannot put off to a later date.
Because there is no guarantee of the future.
The only thing life guarantees is NOW.
We have to live our lives to the fullest.
We have to give everything our very best.
We have to treasure our friends, family and contacts while we can.
For the future is an unknown,
that we cannot count on.
We must make the best use of NOW while we still are around.
Or regret, we will,
when something or someone we take for granted will be there tomorrow
Leaves.
This is not the full post luh. I cut some parts. I concluded with "disappointment just wastes the time you have NOW".
Echoing what everyone else has been saying... let's make the best out of our next/last few months as NCOs. ^^
Hotshots, jiayou!
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Jing Yee
(Sorry if I give the impression that I am taking squad blog as personal blog, and if I don't make sense... Just got a sudden urge to put it here. I apologise for being random. ^^)
